The Return

Hello Again Everyone, I Know It Has Been A While Since My Last Proper Post But Things Have Been Very Stressful At The Moment So Hopefully Everything Will Even Out Now. I Will Also Still Be Making The Podcast But That Will Be Uploaded Onto YouTube Until I Get Some Money To Host It. Today Will Just Be A Completely Random Upload About Something That I Hate But Affects Me: Atychiphobia. Some Of You May Be Asking What This Is, And Why It's So Bad But All Will Be Revealed.

Basically Atychiphobia Is The Fear Of Failure And Is One Of The Worst Fears A Person Can Have Personally. Recently It Has Come Out A Lot More And Can Actually Make Me One Depressed Guy. It Can Affect You More Than You Would Expect, When People Hear This They Think You Just Get A Bit Nervous When Walking Into Tests And Stuff Like That But It Affects You With Everything You Do In Your Everyday Life. I'm Going To Share With You Some Of The Affects It Has And My Personal Experience With Them.

1. Nervousness

This Is The Biggest Thing By Far That Is Caused By Atychiphobia And Can Affect Even The Smallest Decisions. The Nervousness Caused By This Can Affect Little Things You Do Like With Me I Can't Put Up My Hand In Class Because I'm Afraid I'll Say Something Wrong And Then Everyone Will Think I'm Stupid. This Nervousness Can Also Affect Making New Friends, For Example In My Science Class (Not Going To Mention Which One) I Sit Next To A Girl Whom I Really Like But I Can Not Talk To Her At All, If She Starts Conversation With Me I Just Reply As Quick As I Can And I Want To Continue The Conversation But I Just Can't As I Feel I Might Faint Or Say Something That'll Make Her Think Less Of Me

2. Faintness

I Have Never Fainted In My Life But I Feel Faint All The Time And Occasionally Dizzy. This Mostly Occurs For Me When Talking To New People And Even More So When Talking To 'Said Girl'. This Is A Really Uncomfortable Feeling As It Makes You Not Think Straight And You Feel Like An Idiot. This Faintness Kinda Links Into Panic Attacks Which I Don't Get Regularly But They Have Happened In The Past And Are Really Annoying Really.

3. Overall Feelings Of Dread

This Kinda Links Back To Nervousness As Nervousness Can Make You Feel Dread. Now I Am Usually A Happy Guy But On Tuesday Somethings Happened During My 4th Period Class And I Got Really Upset For The Rest Of The Day And  A Bit Of The Next Day, This Was Caused By These Feelings Of Pure Dread. I Was Dreading Going Into My Last Lesson Because I Know That When I Am Upset People Aren't Used To Seeing Me Like It And I Hate Being The Center Of Attention Most Of The Time. I Am Still Feeling A Bit Upset After That But It Will All Clear Up Soon Enough.

Now This Has Been My Personal Insight To Atychiphobia Which May Or May Not Relate To Some People But I Feel Like I Have To Let It All Out Which Is What These Posts Are About Really.

Anyway Thanks For Staying This Long And Reading I Really Appreciate It. The Podcast As I Mentioned Earlier Is Going To Be Coming Out Soon And The First Few Editions On YouTube. I Have Also Decided To Keep Posting By Writing Once A Week Parallel To The Podcasts. Anyway Thanks For Reading So Much And Sorry For The Lack Of Posts! Good Night